Three years ago yesterday my brother died suddenly and unexpectedly. I mentioned it was a heavy day but truthfully it’s just one of the more poignant days in a series of difficult months.
It starts every year in October and lasts through January. In October, the climate changes and there is a certain feeling in the air and in the light. This alone, along with Halloween starts me thinking and grieving for my brother as October was his last days on earth. The last pictures and videos he took were on Halloween with his one year old son.
He dressed Braeden up as Yoda for Halloween that year.
Then of course November comes and ALL the memories flood in of the shock and the funeral and then the holidays…. and just…. grieving. I get sad moments a lot and my mood dips in general. I have a lot of guilt about his death and feel it much more during these months. My energy wanes and- in the past – my appetite clicks to off. My health suffers.
This year I can’t let that happen and it’s taking a lot of effort – which is why I chose to do this 30 days on Health thing – I need all the positive encouragement and motivation I can get.
Greg is and has always been an inspiration to me – he struggled with his own demons came out on top. He is both a role model in life AND in recovery.
I need to channel that especially hard this year over the next few months because it hasn’t been enough before — as he would be telling me with words if he were here. Step it up a notch sister!
His motto was/is “I Never "Try" anything…I JUST DO IT!”
He liked/likes Yoda apparently.
He also told me once “Shit or get off the pot, Missy!” lol.
I am praying for his spirit to fill me with the serving of whoop-azz he’d be giving me were he alive coupled with his complete energy of awesomeness.
It often does. I feel him.
I was out yesterday and encountered this little vision which had me in a complete fit of giggles. It is EXACTLY the type of thing that Greg and I would laugh at for days. Not many people would get it.
I’m not going to explain the picture below or why I find it so hilarious (I will say it has everything to do with the book). You either get it or not. But Greg? I know you’re still laughing with me on this.
That’s a fake rat.
Greg – I know you and I will share many of these laughs as long as I’m here on earth. (PS- Were you there yesterday with Mom and the Spanx? I mean ..outside the dressing room obviously..but man. How hilarious was that? )
Today’s Prompt for NHBPM is “Write a list of three things you are inspired by.” I chose one. Greg. I totally cheated. I needed to write this today. Previous posts can be found here.
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