I left a comment on Sophia’s post “How Blogging Helped My Eating Disorder” I’d like to share. It sums up how I’ve been feeling about writing here.
(I’m leaving all my typos, spelling and grammar atrocities because that’s my commenting style. My fingers are fat, I chicken peck the keyboard. #owningit.)
I have a blog …. but for me it’s just like a little scrapbook hobby.
It’s just “my blog” not my “recovery blog” and I happen to struggle in recovery so yeah, so writing about food, eating disorders, body image…etc…is gonna pop up because that’s a big part of my life.
All in all, I think my blog has helped my efforts in recovery. Writing is a powerful tool, and the comments and feedback I receive are PRICELESS. Seriously. I think since I am so open nobody feels the need to blow smoke up my bum….I have a very open mind and welcome everyone’s opinion and feedback. I don’t always manage to listen though.
On that note — I DO NOT think my blog is “helping” or capable of “helping” others, though some say my writing “inspires them” or makes them think and stuff. They relate. And I write for me, at the end of the day. Not really for an “audience”
YET — I have been thinking…..is there a responsibility that comes with blogging? Can you actually be harmful? I’ve learned a lot about blogging that I was naive about in the past 3 months.
Lately I worry that I just make people worry about me. That makes me just want to disappear.
But I can’t. Cause then ED would win. And really only 7 people read my blog. Most of them are my family and RL friends. LOL.
But that’s the big clincher for me……no whether blogging can help or harm the individual…..but does the individual have the capacity to unwittingly harm others ?
(If you want). I miss my hobby. I’m not sweating over it or anything because it’s just my little blog and is really a miniscule part of my life.
Yet, I haven’t settled on how I feel about this.
I’d like your opinion. (is anyone reading this?)
- Has a blog ever negatively impacted you or disturbed you?
- Is my blog harmful, because I am not recovered and still struggling?
- Do we have a responsibility? I DO NOT take my blog seriously, try to get traffic or promote my blog. I don’t present myself to be anything other than just me. It’s just my stupid blog! BUT…if it can harm even one person than….
- I freaking LOATHE the word/idea of…the word that rhymes with “friggers.” I don’t understand how my blog/writing can inspire anyone to do damage to themselves. Perhaps someone reading may disagree? I’d like to hear your input.