“The single greatest cause of atheism in the world today is Christians, who acknowledge Jesus with their lips, then walk out the door, and deny Him by their lifestyle. That is what an unbelieving world simply finds unbelievable”
I’ve been feeling convicted about declaring my Faith in God and speaking of my relationship with Him; declaring myself a Christian.
As a child of God I am called to spread His Light and Freedom and Love….and I love to do so.
Yet, look at me. I am mired in sin and imprisoned by fear.
I’m a mess.
Not a picture of what life in Christ looks like.
While this conviction DOES strengthen my resolve to grow and heal, I’m feeling so ashamed. Like I want to stay quiet.
You wanna know what’s awesome though? I can’t.
Christ has grabbed onto my heart so firmly that squelching any praise or talk about Him is….
Simply not an option.
Impossible. I can’t help it. It’s like breathing.
Because I DO LOVE GOD.
I DO HAVE FAITH.
I AM A CHRISTIAN.
It was not a decision I had to make, to believe.
One day, I simply did.
And that belief, that faith, is moving me to examine every single choice in my life. That’s how God leads us. Saves us. It can’t be undone. He will not let you go.
So, I should probably get myself together and start acting like I got some sense.
(God knows all this, trust me. We’re working on it. I am still in my Tug-of-War with God. But I’m getting really tired and weak. The game is getting old.)
(I haven’t always been a Christian, which explains why the quote above resonates with me so completely.)