I’ve proselytized “living mindfully in the present” for most of my life. I’m not alone. The popular sentiment in our culture (though sadly not the reality) is to savor each moment of the “here and now.” The present is a gift. Yadda, Yadda.
There’s no dearth of reminders to live in the present. It’s a good message.
But I need to move past this. For me, living in the moment prevents me from living “wisely and earnestly.”
I need to be thinking about tomorrow.
I need to be living for tomorrow.
It’s Widdershins. It’s wack birds. Let me explain.
I’ve been living “in the moment” my entire life. It’s natural for me (“Look! A butterfly! Pretty! Yay Life!).
It’s also an occupational hazard of life with an eating disorder (like any addiction or affliction).
During both the dog days of disease and the heydays of recovery – the Modus Operandi has been constant: Just make it through the day.
Orchestrating my food on a daily basis has been difficult and consuming. Setting goals, working toward future dreams…basically living life to it’s full potential is entirely overwhelming. I can’t remember the last time I looked forward to ANYTHING but the end of the day.
I spend the majority of my time trying to make the present moment more bearable — often resorting to compulsive measures. Then I feel like crap the next day. Still stuck.
So I decided to stick it to stuckness. I stuck stickies around to help me think of tomorrow.
They help me live healthier days by reminding me to live for tomorrow:
- I can start a diet tomorrow (but I probably won’t want to).
- Did I overeat? I’ll feel better tomorrow.
- Do I want to purge? No, I’ll feel like crap tomorrow.
They also inspire me to think about my future – a healthy future.
- Tomorrow I can start to work on a career.
- I will feel well enough to socialize tomorrow.
- I saved money today so I will have it tomorrow.
After all, I’m not getting any younger.
So, where YOU at?
Do you need to work on living more mindfully in the here and now, or do you need to step it up and start thinking of today’s repercussions?