We’ve heard it all before. Lay your burdens at the cross. Hand it over to God, etc.
A few years ago I did just that. And…
The next day I woke up completely healed and decided to tithe 15% of my income to the 700 Club.
Oh, no wait. I saw that on TV. Here is what actually went down. I was feeling helpless and weary and I decided to take it to the cross and pray.
Actually, I was at the gym in the sauna at the time so it looked a little more like this:
God can come wherever you are. Anyways.
I decided to illustrate the story, yet…how to depict God? I tried humor.
It seemed so wrong (Looks like Mr. Hanky!)
…. so This is God:
I prayed that God would take all of my hurts, afflictions, addictions, struggles into his hands. I trusted him to wash me clean. I was weary. His way is easy, his burden is light.
And God said:
No, not audibly. (I wish?)
I offered it up again….
And again God said:
I tried again. (I’m still there in the sauna mind you)
It was like trying to glue water to a wall.
CLEARLY God was showing me (in his beautiful way)
that I am not letting go. I am still holding on.
But to what?
I couldn’t figure it out. I felt ready to recover, to relinquish all this nonsense, but was I?
The thing is, God’s not going to play tug-of-war with us. He gave us free will for a reason and he can’t help us unless we are willing to let him.
I felt ready and willing, but was I? Am I?
I guess not.
This makes me sad. <—understatement
Years later I’m still trying to figure out what that “something” is I can’t let go of.<–
Lately I’m realizing so much. I have a feeling this year will be the year I figure it out and learn to completely
Amen to that.
- What things have you “let go” of in life?