My Dad told me I eat like a cow.
Oh no he di’int.
Oh yes. He did. And he’s right. My father is a wise man.
Let me explain.
After abandoning my meal plan, I slowly developed a habit of eating “a little of this” and “a little of that” throughout the day. I don’t label it as snacking, it’s more like grazing.
Couple of tomato slices? Don’t mind if I do.
You know what sounds good? An egg white and a pickle.
I’ve wanted to write about this for a while but I was reluctant to be “that girl” with pictures like these on her blog.
I eat what I want (or what I think I want) all day long and I don’t feel like I’m restricting (or am I?)
Consuming mass quantities of broccoli, cauliflower and ketchup is normal, right?
Doesn’t everyone crave daikon radish with himilayan sea salt?
I eat like this all day long. Really. ALL. DAY. LONG.
Thus prompting my father’s cow comment.
“In order to get as big as they are, cows eat all day long. That’s all they do, all they think of, they exist to eat. Because all they eat is grass. Grass has no calories.”
No wonder I’m so miserable, so obsessed with food. You have to eat a lot of grass to grow a big…er…cow.
The “snacks” I’m eating are lacking in many ways. First and foremost? Calories! When I do sit down for dinner, I have to admit the calories are still lacking.
Where does this leave me?
Unsatisfied, ashamed of my frequent trips to the kitchen, and very unproductive. My dad is also my boss. Trust me, he notices.
He even told a client “She eats all day – never stops – just 5 calories at a time.”
Enough is enough. I’ve gotten to the point where I’m bingeing and purging and gaining weight because of it. Unhealthy weight. And I’m still hungry.
I don’t want to be a cow anymore.
It’s time for me to get back into regular meal eating and that takes planning and that means…..dundundun…meal plan.
Sigh.
- Is it hard for you to plan your meals? It’s so laborious to me.
- What is the weirdest comment you’ve gotten about your eating habits?
