I’ve been lacking desire and motivation to get out of bed in the morning blog lately.
And really? Nothing to see here ….
Except replace the laptop with shameful amounts of reality television and vino. No shame in that game.
But the point remains: GET.OVER.IT.
(Actually, I don’t watch the Kardash–iansanity but you get it.) 
Speaking of getting over it, it’s taking pretty much every ounce of energy I got to exist beat this funky-dunk.
I need intervention.
What I have been doing ……
……is not helping. Too much of a good thing is binge eating not good.
I’ll get back up soon.
I am sure.
No, really. I’m sure.
See? Still giggling.
I’ll find my way.
We all have to find our own way, you see… … to THE way.
(Oh look at me…come for the pickles and butterflies and stay for the deep philophosophical shiz and yes I know that is spelled wrong say it out loud and pretend like you are talking to me and now you know I talk in run-ons when I want to.)
We all have different ways of finding our way to THE way…
I’m glad I know which direction to head in; and glad to know I’ve a hand to hold, a steady path to follow, and a lamp to guide my way there.
But you know…I have to get out of bed and face life make a lot of changes in order to “pick up my mat” and walk.
- I like to close comments when I write such a nothing but a sad hag update because…really?
However, if you would like to comment please tell me your “not-so-shameful-except-really-they-can-be” indulgences? Are they truly indulgences or have they become vices?
Obvz I have to comment. sooo much to say! But it can be in epic emails. To put it briefly, reeelaaaaaaaatee soooo much.
Love those glitter pills. And the obstacle illusion. And other memes. And yeah. Eye leurb your bloooog.
(sometimes holding myself back) indulgences: tv, reading health+fitness newz on the internet, tumbling, snuggling with big dog..in bed..spooning.., coping by cleaning+organizing obsessively (an indulgence?), and…more
I’m bouncing back from a little slump like super duper, and I’m sure I’ll end up telling you all about it hehe.
Just know you’ll get through it and it gets easier and the first step is to just DO. Watch some Biggest Loser and have Jillian yell at you? hehe you will get off your ass and start moving.
your post about a word (or maaaaaaantra) is still inspiring me. everyday I try to remember to Activate, Do. and Believe, Love.
Your only indulgence that seems like it can get ugly is the obsessive organizing and I envy you. I would much rather be organized than a drunk, chain smoking binge eater.
I have never gotten into Biggest Loser — I do feel like it promotes exercise bulimia, btw – Anyways — Jillian scares me. I’d much rather workout with Jackie Warren or Tracy Anderson because they have bodies I would like to emulate (let’s get shallow for a second..heehee).
Your word(s) are working it seems.
PS- Now that I am crawling out from my rock I’m emailing you today.
I hope the drunk, chain smoking, binge eater is not referring to you, b/c really, you’re not. That’s not how I see you.
But really, my organizing and cleaning really isn’t pretty either.
Yeah, biggest loser, there are def some iffy things that take place. Kind of motivating and triggering at the same time.
Cabin fever, anyone? That’s what I’m going through right now. I’m bored yet too lazy to do anything other than lounge with my son. It’s snowing, below 0, and darn cold here in WI. Okay complain fest over. See, you are not the only one.
What reality TV shows do you enjoy? I recently got into Joe Schmo show, and it has been cracking me up.
The cold(ish?) weather here does factor in but I cannot complain…we are ranging 60-75. <– Don't hate me because I am Floridian please.
I love a bunch of reality Shows, I have never heard of Joe Schmo.
The Housewives such me in BAD … Like my mind shuts down and bliss ensues as I stare in disbeleif.
Yep, wine, fashion magazines and trashy TV (Pretty Little Liars anyone).
Those are my indulgences.
Oh- I also meant to ask you if you have ever read “Women, Food and God?”
(Sorry for barging in but) I recently got that book (it came with something I had ordered, emm, sign, much?). Is it any good? B/c I havent started reading it yet
I’ve read it three time ya’ll. It’s THE bomb.
I am not ready to tackle her intuitive eating model but that book goes well beyond it — I love when she talks about being “walking heads” and how to settle in to your body because whoa..There is a PROFOUND level of body disattachment in people who struggle with eating.
PROFOUND.
The author of the book also has a facebook page which is kind of nice, she regularly posts and there are some good discussions on there. It seems she has a newsletter but I don’t really know where that is. https://www.facebook.com/GeneenRoth?group_id=0
I’ve been there before and also she has videos over at Oprah.com
Oprah pimped that book like a big-pimping pimper.
I can see why, even women who don’t fall under the “ed umbrella” often have complicated relationships with food.
Oprah’s relationship with food is one the most complicated out there (publicly).
Oh my gosh. TV is my guilty pleasure. In particular: The Biggest Loser (because obviously I need to pick up some tips) and Switched at Birth. I also watch the Ellen show, but I hardly count that as a “guilty pleasure.” That is just good self-care.
One of my dreams is to dance with Ellen.
Love her.
we are long lost winos. just sayin. but really, i am praying… for you.. for your heart, soul, strength, and more. You are always there for me, so i am here for you. ALWAYS!
Thank you Linds — You read between the lines and caught the gravity, so sweet.
You always make me feel better with those (posts).
Less loser. More “normal” which I know I’m not.
And happy.
Ok, I know that’s not the point of the post – to make someone happy – but since you’ve left your comments open…
Sorry to rant.
Thinking of you daily
There is no such thing as normal…and well….would we really want to be if there was?
We are fabulous “losers” lol.
Indulgences Im not sure. Vices, yes. Mostly; dodging life. I do it via internet (hello!), as I dont have a TV.
(And “Too much of a good thing is binge eating//not good.” >> I LOLd, haha)
Girl, if you wanna rant, email me will ya? I’m the ‘too much of a thing’ girl, and willing to spill my guts anytime for you
Yeah………..come to think of it my addict head can turn any “indulge” into a “nose dive” into excess and YES I am in “that” mode again — you picked up on that.
I’ll email ya — I have to catch up on your blog first and Greta’s and…gosh I would be such a better blog buddy if I internet-ed rather than TV and Food drunk.
I somehow didnt get notifications on replies here! But heya, you dont need to catch up with my blog to be able to email me love! You can just vent without it, and I’ll dive into that with you. What I post on my blog is what I need to vent at that particular moment, that doesnt say a thing on how I feel a day later (or, an hour for that matter) nor that I cant discuss something else. So dont worry about that!
I wish I had an emailer like all the cool bloggers do.
You’re as cool as it gets Pinguin!
I love your ability to make people smile even when you yourself are down in the dumps.
I lose way too much time on the internet and way too much time hiding under my bed covers. I used to spend a lot of time reading by my brain isn’t cooperating.
Thinking of you and sending hugs. Hope things start to improve asap! xx
I recently had the joy of becoming intimately acquainted with the covers routine — which is just NOT me…and I have a feeling I know the whys behind that. My reading suffers too when I am not good with the food……well EVERYTHING suffers, amen?
So true. Everything suffers without the food. And I think it’s significant that it seems that much of the time when Jesus met with a lot of people, he fed them in some way, delivering both the food of the spirit and the food to keep the body alive.
I hope that things start getting brighter soon, Missy. I know they will – we know that the slumps are not forever.
EVERYTHING — Mind/Body/Spirit, baby!
Food of life!
I can feel the funk! It doesn’t help that I am in an idle state right now with no job and waiting to hear from schools. I am home a lot, and bored..and I eat when I am bored. It’s an awful cycle.
Gosh I KNOW that “idle” state…Good thing you are crafty, that can add some spark.
PS – what else does one do when they are bored? LOL. I eat when I am all the things.
Except when I am in a weird rexi state.
I’ve had a hard time with acceptance lately, but I’m trying to be kind to myself everyday. Gratitude is one thing that has also really helped me. My brother is in AA, and one thing he has some of his sponsees do is to write a list of all the things they are grateful for…. I’ve never actually written one, but usually once I turn my mind towards the idea, my brain starts moving through a pretty freakin long ass list! that lifts me up too
And i LOVE that bert and ernie pic! going to send it to PAPA GC , he will love it.
xoxo,gc
Gratitude is always the answer. So glad that PAPA GC will get his Sesame Street on….I hope he can get some Sorbet action on too.