So much of our lives are spent trying to fix.
We try and fix ourselves, our family, our bodies, our socio-economic positions or our social status….our eating disorders, our own way.
We try and fix our sadness, our boredom, our loneliness, or our weakness…
We try and fix our frailty, our discomfort…
Anytime we feel emptiness or lacking…
we think we need a fix.
When we try to fix ourselves, we look for it in all the wrong places. We find things that help us escape, not solve.
We get our fix from shopping, from drugs, from the next relationship, from the cigarette, the sedative, the bag of chips, the glass of wine, the promotion at work, the laxative, the gym, the number on the scale, the next drama we create to escape boredom……
We need to stop trying to “fix” ourselves…
and fix our eyes on God.
When we fix our eyes on God, we are blessed not only by His presence and Love, but by his Guidance. He is mighty to change.
Our Obedience is our Freedom.
Don’t have a relationship with God?
Fix your eyes on Love, Peace, Security, Comfort…what is good and what is right.
Fix your eyes on Absolute Impenetrable TRUTH.
Fix your eyes on G.O.D.
Good Orderly Direction.
We all know what is right. Obedience follows. Straighten up and “act like you got some sense”. Don’t be foolish, you grown now.
It’s kind of hard to fix your eyes on Truth and simultaneously shove potato chips and ice cream down your throat thinking it will fix anything at all.
It’s harder to fix your eyes on God and stick your finger down your throat or spend 5 minutes debating over the number of calories in a grape.
It’s sobering to sit there with your third glass of wine thinking it will help you feel better about your lackluster job or feel any less bored or lonely tomorrow.
You know what I mean?
God burned this one into my heart this week and I wanted to share it with you. It’s simple, it’s not easy. It’s not the most fun way to deal – especially when we’re used to taking a more active approach and chasing the next easy fix.
Instead, we chase the next right thing.
We do less of what we want and more of what is right.
We are blessed when we do so, despite the temporary discomfort.
It’s my beautiful struggle right now – but if all I can do is just fix my eyes on Him and cry I know I am doing the one thing I need to do.
I have a plan. I have a goal. I am scared. But I am in good hands.
The word “our” is like really weird for me right now.