Last night was rough.
I make steps forward in recovery and suddenly find myself crashing through part of the course I already traveled.
I seldom have a clue exactly when I decide to turn my face away from the goal and high-tail it backwards. I just find myself there.
And today, I feel really sad about my life. My situation.
Really upset with myself.
*Sigh*”
It happens. Keep Moving.
(This is one of my favorite “Missy-isms” I say it to myself quite a bit. )
Practicing “Constructive Living” helps my recovery. By no means have I mastered this, but I do find the teachings really helpful. (when I can get out of my head long enough to employ them)
Constructive Living emphasizes accepting your feelings without trying to change them. You acknowledge them, learn from them, then focus on doing what needs doing.
“Focus on living well regardless of how you are feeling at the moment.”
Feelings are real –same way this paper mask is real– But they do not define me.
I’m still essentially the same underneath it all.
I could have a montage of last night running through my mind. I could journal about it, think of ways to burn calories get back on track…I can let my whole day be consumed by the past. Trust me. Been there.
But…I won’t.
I’ll just put on a happy face and “keep moving.”
“Feelings fade over time unless re-stimulated.”
“Neurotic suffering grows from self-centeredness, misplaced attention.”
UM…on an ENTIRELY unrelated note…look at this random trippy picture!
My face is cracking me up, too. Totally not posed.
keep at it. it works.
I totally understand everything you said in here. Lately it seems like every time I make any sort of step forward, I wind up backtracking over and over again. It’s becoming so frustrating, especially when it comes at you unexpectedly. You CAN do this though, I can see the determination radiating in all of your posts! Hang in there girl
I know setbacks are discouraging but stay strong and keep moving forward. Be kind to yourself and know you are worth it! xoxo
You are beautiful
Stay strong! No matter what happened yesterday, an hour ago, or a second ago time moves forward. With every new moment we are given the opportunity to change what we didn’t like in past moments!
I can see you’re doing this girl, it’s hard but you’re doing it! That’s amazing! You deserve recovery and all the wonderful beautiful things a recovered life will bring to you.
Keep it up : )
First of all : Thank you for your comments on my blog. To read that another fighter found inspiration in my words touch me, and help inspire me too.
Constructive thinking is great. You can not change what you’ve already done, you can only take wisdom from your actions and try make different decicions in the present.
So, you went for a run – that is nothing something you can erase, done is done. But ask yourself whether that made you genuinely happy and relieved, or if it only pleased your eating disorder. Did it bring you closer to life, to your dreams?
I often just sit and talk to my feelings. Listen to them, allow them to dance around in my mind and body, while figuring out what they are trying to tell me and how to best use my feelings. To ignore or deny feelings do no good, they do not disappear – the best way is to deal with them, no matter how hard and challenging that is.
Keep fighting, I’m with you – you can allways reach out to me.
All my support,
Hedda
Missy- I’m glad you’re getting back on your recovery horse
It’s such a difficult process, but the best and most healthy thing we can do is get right back to it.
Lots of love,
Yasi
This is a fabulous post. I like what it says about allowing yourself to feel the emotions and learn from them. I think that is really important. Hope today is better for you.
Stay strong beautiful! We all have those “bump in the road” type days. I know you’ll move past it and continue to thrive in your recovery!
Well done, for realising that you are able to pick yourself up and carry on. Because you are able to get through this, it may be bumpy, but it will be worth it in the end!
I think I need to take your way of thinking, and not dwell on things, regardless of if they are good or bad. Moving on constructively is the best thing I can do.
And that picture is so trippy, you have so many arms/fingers!
Stay strong
xx
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I was looking at blogs that talk about Constructive Living– such a reasonable, helpful, approach, a life saver, I think– and I found your blog. So refreshing and funny and sweet. Also I love the Eric Carle pictures.